Oscillate

Love of a broken heart
Cut on it’s edges
A finger round a glass
Resonating, oscillations of the light
Through sheer weight of emotion
The glass breaks, a rose sits
Atop the wing of a raven
Crucified on the mirror

Like the pain of hope we cry
The lord of love shall die
There’s nothing but raw emotion
Lacerated flesh, shot through with the thread
Of our loved dead

I’m not your messiah
Though I bleed just the same
Ripped out, engaged, humiliated
Edge of a spade, this is realising
We are now, muscles like string
A sinew ripping audibly
This is over, no legacy

Love of a broken heart
Cut on it’s edges

Haemophilia

Agnostic, maybe a touch poetic
Fuck etiquette, we’re deaf
Dumb and here again

This is like a disease
I bleed for you, scream for you
Yet you don’t care
Why won’t you listen
This is all I have to give, hold me

It never clots, always flows
How many times must I touch the steel
Behind your eyes, the cold
Inside it stings

I loved you, why won’t you care
Fucking haemophilia
I’m drained here

All I ever loved in this world
Has been stripped away
We return to what we have left
Empty hearts and broken dreams

When will we make you see?
That this is all we have
Our clandestine kisses
And teased lips
My back is tensed and still
It tears in again, flesh and sinew
Sliced, by contempt in your tongue

It’s all a bit much
And I’d rather not know
Your reasons, just go

A Portrait of A Pretentious Mind

If my heart is an open casket to be draped with fine garbs of sorrow
Then this verse is but one thin silk veil of blood-drenched woe
If the finely entwined threads of this garment
Could give voice to their thoughts they would only choke
And retch their way through epic dirges of lost hope
Tell tales of hurt and abandonment

For now these cloths bedeck my docile heart and whisper
Soft reminders of my life, wrapping tighter round the muscle
Til the arteries are cut off and claret flows no more through it’s ventricles
The heart withers and gasps, faltering and unnerved by the blood’s absence
As too do I, for you are the blood that keeps me alive
The thread that weaves through my mind and keeps my thoughts together
Gathered is all I can be at best and only with you do I cling to that

Without you I am not living, I am but barely breathing
And the absence of my heart weighs heavily on my lungs
For if my heart is an open casket then
Without you, my mind and self have made a bed of the coffin
And are to be buried inside the cold heart
Without you I am merely a pallbearer
And the solitary mourner at my soul’s funeral
I am cold without you
And I realise now that I can’t lose you

I’ll Be Here

So, it’s been a long time coming and now it’s come to pass
But I’m still standing, stock still stunned and cold
My heart’s been pounding faster than i’ve known
In fourteen years spent twisted and alone

In all this time, I never knew your reasons
Girl, turn the key, and call open season
Release the wolves and bait my breath
In sheeps clothing and stained blood red

Choking, wretching, choke the wretch
Sip a litre then down the rest
Fuck the flock, take what you can
Out for all you can get, but left me alone

The door’s open pass through it, and don’t look back
Because theres no turning back, run along
You’re just a part of the past and a long long way from home
And I’m still standing, yeah, i’ll be here

Fatalistic

What if, what if i never make it out of this alive
I ask her
Would you mourn for me or carry on in ignorance
Not allowing my demise to affect your poise and countenance
She laughs and smiles, flashing her yellow teeth

You’re so fucking fatalistic, she replies
Without truly understanding the word

I push harder. Would you even care if I died?
Followed you around,
Screaming agonised declarations on the afterlife
Would you even care?

She smiled once more.
I would be distraught, she whispers.
And I’m startled to note the sincerity in her voice
Then I scream. Why won’t you fucking love me?

Because, she says, stubbing out a cigarette
On the tabletop, you’re so fucking fatalistic
And our time has passed

Resurrector

The writing on the wall is running onto the street
Became the fifth raven, I’m widening into nothing
Taste human smoke as I draw near
Enter resurrector number nine
Call open season on thought crime

Oh Lord, I’m screaming, end this torment
As the shit fills my lungs, my skin is crawling
A litany of corruption, a written lie

There is no question, I held this cross far too long
Some things you’ll never know
A bend, a twist of the truth, dead, torn and far from rapture
Slowly tasting suicide, this corruption is a painting

Don’t stand so far from it, choking into life
You felt dead liars, you don’t smile
Wounds run deeper with each passing day
A bloody memory
You’re so shamed and I’m fucking cold

I run my fingers down my neck, this monster haunting you
Is but a taste of the hell you’ll meet after life
I guess you’re just another fucking whore
To Abaddon and the corporate lords

Tastes sicker than revelation, there is no pariah
But yourself, spiralling, ending this fucking life
You’re but an object in their game
You lick this dirty rotten flesh
And we all suffocate in our special way

Dirty White

Step up, turn back
The mouse bleeds clearer now
Coward, return to lay on the moss
Procrastinated, desecrated
You are not time
I cry that beyond all this lives
A candle from the tears of a phoenix
You rise once more, turn, then run
I am fear
Exsanguinate the rodent, drape it’s corpse
Over your flayed back

The taste, flavour of your screams
Addictive, you take up all the space
In my box, my cell, no light
Bread and water and a mouse’s nose
No one lives for themself alone

Enter The Albatross

Innate fear of social change
Calm this hostility, we are here for love
Yet we need more than a heart
To sate the taste of a tapered candle
The wax on our skin, but we are here for love

Iron clad we walk our oceans
Set off the charge
Breach the hull, once more
For the kill, brine rushes in
A new home for your corpse
Sealed, now Utah screams for me
But the only hope I know
The only sign of safety, is your body
To lay within your arms
The beat of your lungs
Rattles my spine, this is love

Thesaurus, in the thorax
A bird overhead
Sense is an illusion
Coherent thought is overrated
A cliché, to allow interpretation
An inferno eviscerates the fear of our lust
But we no longer care
Your body, this is love

This Is Love

Sudden death syndrome
And there’s nothing left for you
I guess this is the hand you were played
Take it for what it is
Slide the leach against your teeth
It tastes like pain
Brewed in anguish
The life of a dead girl is
Worth nothing more
Than the sound of her eyes
As they snap shut

We killed her
Hope
She has fallen

But this is what you wanted?
Sin and death
I know you love this
Don’t pretend the leach wasn’t to your pallet

Displayed for emptiness
A vacuum of existentialism
But this is what you wanted?
This is love

Transient

To wander down steeple steps,

Beneath a blackened sky.

With book in hand and smoke twixt lips,

To taste that echoed scent.

To drink from flagons hung from hips.

I bound through grass unkept.

 

With enthuse lent from Bacchus,

And calmly drawing on my tobacco,

I sat a while in that cold field and studied prose and verse.

The world revolved as i filled my head

With Thermopylae and Troy in turn,

And through ancient tongues i did learn

More of life than e’er before i’d found

In testament, textbook or hymn.

 

As night drew in and i wrapped in

Little more than summer cloth

I closed my tomes and started out

Back onto darkened path.

I left behind the parkland and Thrace and ancient Greece

And out into the street i stumbled, mind filled with sentiment

And as i passed beggar, drunkard, hooker and thug.

In my heart i trembled and could not help but lament

The state of once verdant England and all we now know

Though through my eyes i’m sickened

In my mind i’m free, to read of work of freeing verse

Of Argos, Mars and Galilee.